VITups

 22-12-2024 It's Sunday and it's the first day of winter vacations. And I already miss college :( . I am thinking of writing down what happened last week (on the days I didn't post) on this post based on my memory. Monday -> Morning, the bus was late as usual. We texted a friend of Vishal with a catfish account, It was fun. Met one new friend through Vishal, his name is Tashin ig. I am not able to understand how his name is pronounced or spelled. Maybe I need to take a look at his ID card once.  Tuesday -> I was late for morning CSE class by 15 minutes but the teacher didn't say anything regarding that. And in evening CSE labs, my pc was slow so I went to first row and sat beside some dude(i didn't know who he was), later I found out that he is a final year student from Hyderabad. He is repeating this course because he was not in college due to some personal issues and got debarred. He showed us his report card for second sem and that he attempted had A and S ...

15-12-2024 I haven't done anything productive today. I have not worked out., nor have I studied. I really want to do a lot of things but haven't been able to due to Instagram addiction. Should I just delete it? And I am not in mood of doing anything. It feels like the reason is me being all sweaty. I should probably wash my face. I should get my ass moving. I watched a movie called "The Wild Robot". It was about a robot that was washed up to some unknown island because of storm during its dispatching. The story revolves about the robot raising an orphan wild goose and through that journey, she becomes sentient and actually experiences emotions. I cried at the end of the movie. Honestly one of the best animated movies I have had in a while. I think I am getting interested in photography because I just inserted an SD card in my phone few days ago and am not limited by storage anymore.

12-12-2024 Today, The new semester started. I honestly didn't feel that joyous regarding that. I could've spoken with new people and formed new connections with them but haven't done that and my first instinct was to go and sit with old friends. The new teachers felt boring maybe because it was a subject I didn't know. This happened with me when I joined VIT during start. I didn't like it back then too.  Today, the first period started with differential equations class with the madam telling us to focus on practice and she was explaining the basic expressions of differential equations. I sat with Vishal in that period, the whole class felt alien. I sat with him because I did not want him to become uncomfortable with new people. Maybe I shouldn't have done that but it felt like a relief sitting with him. I asked two people in front of me which department they are from. They said "Data Science" and turned around, no interest in becoming friends. That was...

 04-12-2024 I had English FAT today, it was pretty average because I forgot the format for resume writing, still managed it somehow. There was one particular question in the test which asked me to identify the type of sentence patterns for given sentences. It was the worst. I did not know anything about that topic. It's not like the professor didn't teach or anything, I mean he didn't teach it directly but he assigned it to one group as presentation and made them perform infront of the whole class but I was ignorant enough to not listen to that presentation. I wasn't locked in after CAT 2 because I was tired after it. Because of that mindset, it costed me few marks and potentially good grade in this semester exams.  I came home and watched The Fall Guy by Ryan Gosling. Honestly, it was above average. His body was so cool in one scene where he escapes the bad guys by diving into eater and comes out from other side. I came home and slept and then in evening I watched the ...

 03-12-2024 I have an English FAT tomorrow A neighbour kid contacted me saying hes solving leetcode problems(I have never done that). It made me feel inferior to everyone who has an idea on what they want to do. Raghu from bus got an internship in his brother's company to study more about his business, Hemeshwar from class is going into various hackathons to improve himself in coding side, and he's doing very well (he got into pretty good ranks). These people made me realize that I am not doing anything, even though my dad spent a fortune getting me into VIT. I am not having an ambition for anything, or maybe I have not found it yet. One of my desires is to master or get enough knowledge about everything to become an all rounder. I have constantly changing desires and mottos which makes distractions my best friend. I want to change that.  I have the tendency to not put any effort once the results are confirmed, which makes further improvement impossible.ex- If I know I can do ...